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I can tell that you don't know me anymore, maybe you forget, I hope you just forget. Cause knowing that you DON'T WANT TO KNOW me hurts more than knowing that you FORGET me. You know, it's hard to accept that you don't wanna know but it's harder to ignore it. Can I just pretend that we never really know each other well?

Aulia Izzati

P.S ...

kasian ya gue ditemenin kalo ada duit atau lagi pada ada masalah doang. kalo lagi ga ada apa-apa pada main sendiri-sendiri sama temennya, nanti pas ada masalah lari ke gue semua dengan alasan yang di buat-buat, cerita semuanya ke gue sambil nangis-nangis lah inilah itulah. kenapa lo ga cerita aja sama temen lo yang baik itu sana? di buang ya? (mampus).

nanti di msn kalo ada masalah nyapa gue, kalo masalahnya udah selesai langsung off gitu aja, kalo lagi ga ada masalah, dicuekin. atau kalo ada apa-apa, minta bantuin gue ada hal yang ga penting tapi bikin sedih cerita ke gue, apa-apa gue, apa-apa gue.

terus sekalinya gue ada masalah, jangankan bantu, pas sadar gue ada masalah malah bilang 'lo ga ngasi tau gue sih' emang gue ga mau ngasi tau kok, nanti ujung-ujung nya bukannya gue yang cerita tapi malah pada ngerengek semua tentang masalah masing-masing ke gue. tapi nanti sekalinya gue ga bantuin, gue di omongin di belakang. beruntung banget sih gue punya temen kayak gitu. bahkan yang mau dengerin cerita gue cuma orang yang gue ga deket. lama-lama gue pikir gue lebih baik ga punya temen aja sekalian jadi ga ada yang ngerepotin lagi di hidup gue. cih

Aulia Izzati (feels like shit)

P.S siapa? pikir aja sendiri

Once again Dave, if you ask me a 'Do you like your friends?' question again, my answer will always be the same one. Some people may not be granted with the good one as yours, for me, I think God would say I deserved this. So you know what? Your friends are good so you call them your friends or 'yours'. But me, even they are all good, I hate mine to the fullest.

Aulia Izzati

P.S i colored the answer and the question in the same colors. don't blame me

can i hate God? or maybe i should blame myself for everything. well i never care bout things such like this but the things got me off guard and strike me out with its most powerful words oh get lost all of you

Aulia Izzati (ugh)

P.S strike-out, batter change!

well, why does every kids who listen to the punk rock had the title as "THE SCHOOL'S LOSER"? fuck off (even though i hate emo) i love punk rock. i believe that people who listen to it had its own way of thinking, they look at the world in a different angle, they don't see the wrong as it is, they see the wrong as why is. i think that everyone who said that 'yuck he is a punkers' or 'look at their styles! they're so out of date!' should shut their mouth. you can say i write this just to talk big or somewhat like that but i don't care. people who love punk rock never been anyone else but theirselves, they always be the way they are, not the fake one not the poser. the titled-theirselves-as-the-exist kids in my school are all stupid, they said they do know what true friends are but they just don't. they talk about each other in the back, it's such a shame i went to a school like that. so if i got these two choices :

a. be famous, stylish, the only existence that accepted, got everything
b. be the outcast, out of date, got nothing

i'll choose B cause i could respect all of my friends when i just got a few friends, i don't need to be confused of what-will-i-wear-today if i'm out of date, and i can learn to appreciate when i get something if i got nothing

so, which one do you prefer?

I thought that I could always count on you
I thought that nothing could come between us
we said as long as we would stick together
we'd be alright
we'd be okay

but I was stupid
and you broke me down
I'll never be the same again

so thank you for showing me
that best friends cannot be trusted
and thank you for lying to me
your friendship and good time we had
you can have them back

I wonder why it always has to hurt
for every lesson that you have to learn
I won't forget what you did to me
how you showed me things I wished I'd never see

but I was stupid
and you broke me down
I'll never be the same again

so thank you for showing me
that best friends cannot be trusted
and thank you for lying to me
your friendship and good time we had
you can have them back

when the tables turn again
you'll remember me, my friend
you'll be wishing I was there for you
I'll be the one you miss the most
but you'll only find my ghost
as time goes by
you'll wonder why
you're all alone

so thank you, for lying to me
so thank you, for all the times
you let me down
so thank you, for lying to me
so thank you, your friendship
you can have it back


Aulia Izzati (the most expensive name in the world)

P.S kasian ya gue di temenin kalo lagi dibutuhin doang

To : All of the Human I Hate

Jakarta : Friday, 20th of February, 2009
Indonesian extra lesson
14.15 - 14.21

so tell me how it feels
when you spoke the words between your shabby lips?
do you feel any good in that? cause i feel fuck with that. so go ahead.
speak out you mind, then i'll speak out my rage
you must be a stupid-head, a thinker without brain
don't judge my words by yours, you know nothing
don't judge my feelings about other, you know nothing

and the day after tomorrow
you'll get your head upside-down
confused by your own words
i'll use your words against you
i know your friends will be the death to you
you just don't know yet

speak out louder
so everyone can hear you even they don't want to
you'll get the shabby eggs on your shabby face
i must be the one and you know it
the human behind the lines, the thinker with better brain
and i must be the one

and the day after tomorrow
you'll get your head upside-down
confused by your own words
i'll use your words against you
i know your friends will be the death to you
you just don't know yet

you know i always got the way to work this out
i've got a way and you know exactly how
yes, i want to hold you up and bring you down
oh gosh i just wanna break you down so badly
and it will always be in the worst way
i'm gonna make sure you can't ever get too far from me
no, you wont ever get too far
i'll bring you close to me so i could explode your head

and the day after tomorrow
you'll get your head upside-down
confused by your own words
i'll use your words against you
i know your friends will be the death to you
and of course you will know it soon
suck it, fucker


Aulia Izzati (this name will be the witness)

P.S I'm not as good as you thought