EMO

Gue baru baca beberapa post lama gue waktu smp dan mengapa oh mengapa gue amat sangat teramat emo dan marah-marah mulu! fuuuuuuuuuuuuu padahal di sma gue imut, periang, ceria, super cheerful kayak ceri kurang apa lagi coba......well mungkin itu faktor jauhnya sekolah gue dulu dan sekarang dan dan dan mungkin lama perjalanan yang ditempuh membuat gue emosi. itu cuma teori. TEORI. tapi mungkin aja loh teori gue bener maklumlah kan gue pinter *ihik*


tadinya gue berniat mau ngapus semua post lamanya tapi dari mana gue bisa mengenang masa-masa smp gue nanti HUFFT nanti gimana gue bisa cerita ke anak gue 'dulu ya, waktu smp mama itu eksis, cantik, pokoknya it girl banget deccccch!!'. oke, gak dihapus  pun gue gak bisa bilang kayak gitu ke anak gue karena itu bukan fakta, paling-paling gue cuma bisa bilang 'aduh dulu itu ya waktu smp mama paling segala bisa deh, mulai dari pelajaran sampe olahraga semuanya mama bisa, multi-talented banget deh! sekarang sih teuteeep, HEHEHEHE' FINE itu bukan fakta juga tapi ngarang dikit boleh lah demi anak.

Out of Despair

Oke gue nulis lagi di blog ini dan --bukannya sombong atau apa-- gue lupa cara nulis cerita (curhat) yang baik dan benar dalam bahasa Indonesia setelah sekian lama gue meninggalkan ini HUFFFT.

Entah bagaimana caranya supaya gue bisa kembali mendapat inspirasi kayak dulu lagi...........*bagaimana caranya untuk agar kau mengerti bahwa aku rindu*..........satu-satunya yang gak berubah dari gaya tulis gue kayaknya cuma titik-titiknya dan semakin gue tumbuh *saelah* kata-kata kasar yang gue lontarkan di dalam tulisan juga berkurang.

damn this is awkward i feel like an entire different person! oke gue tenggelam di danau keputus-asaan sekarang setelah beberapa menit gue berpikir gue udah keluar dari situ. bayangin, gue orang indonesia, gak ngerti cara nulis cerita dalam bahasa ini! Chairil Anwar maafkan beta, bukan maksud beta berkhianat saparti ini.

by the way anyway busway gue udah kelas 2 SMA looooooooooooooh, udah keren udah boleh bawa mobil udah boleh pulang malem udah boleh pake baju mini kayak fulla temennya barbie, ups gak deng haha

Aulia Izzati (still can't forget about my awesome name)

P.S. gue gak tau gue bakal tetep nulis disini atau ngga tapi yah, we'll see

Hiatus

hey guys, sorry i wont update this blog for a while. I'll go for indefinite hiatus. just try to check my other blog, thanks.

http://auliaizzati.tumblr.com

Aulia Izzati

P.S I'll be back on blogspot.com after I'm done with ******* I think

Boredom Buster

Today is a day-off, as you know, I've been waiting this day for soooooooooo long. It's a calm week before exam and I don't know why it called 'Calm Week'. I'm currently listening to Switchfoot - You, it's a really good song. Oh well, I'm not going to curse or say something bad today if its possible. Anyway I've just won a talking match with someone-really-not-important in my school, I know I shouldn't said that to 'it' but well I often lost my temper these days and Thomas DeLonge's voice really calmed my heart. I haven't hear his voice for so long and once I hear it again... God it's really a peace of mind, well to me, he is a peace of mind. Sounds nasty isn't it? Well I'm going to go to somewhere and post another blog later after this.

Aulia Izzati (the winner)

P.S I know I'm boring without all of the curse, so, FUCK OFF MAAAAAAAAAN!

Some of the Most Interesting Events Today :

1. There was a COCKroach inside my dad's car

Yeah this morning when I got into car I felt some strange-fucked feeling and all of the sudden there's a fucking cockroach in front of me. All I can do was screaming and I screamed 'DADDDDDY THERE'S A COCKROAAAACH!!' just kidding, that was my sister's, I screamed with all of the cursing I've ever know and heard and my dad just like 'SHUT THE FUCK UP, YOU IDIOTS!' I think he was shocked by my awesome voice... but then I continued to scream 'til my dad sent the goddamn cockroach right to the hell. ALL HAIL MY FATHER

2. Get beaten up by the volleyball named Molten

Well yeah, I'm an Indonesian. Tadi pas olahraga gue main voli dan alhasil tangan gue jadi babak belur... Here it is........

Am I those fucked up?

3. 021108

At the 'Neat Canteen', we were talking about Oprah's Show and a friend of mine said that John Mayer was there and you know I have a little crush on John mayer so that story drivin' me crazy! Oh God, I mean, IT'S JOHN MAYER AND WHY THE HELL I DIDN'T WATCH IT??! FUUUUUUUUCK. Okay, back to where we begins.. Suddenly someone's turning on the bulb inside my head and I got this amazing idea. I borrowed Kiki's cell and called 021108 and said 'Hello miss, do you know John Mayer's phone number?' and the woman in the other line of the phone said in confuse 'John Mayer? Which John Mayer? Where did he live?' and I just said impatiently 'John Mayer, miss, how the hell can you don't know John Mayer?' and the woman said 'John Mayer? Where did he live?', you bet, I lost my temper so i say almost screaming 'TEBET' and all my friends just laugh. Oh stupid one, we also asked the number of Celine Dion, Alex Turner, etc. Gorgeous operator with a gorgeous user like us. Fantastic.

4. My nail was off from it's place

It's true, I'm not lying! About few weeks ago I've got an accident that made my toe's nail broke but it wasn't off the place!! It's kinda gross but now IT IS off it's place. I'm shocked as well. To tell you the truth I have the proof...

I'm not lying, dude...

5. Tomorrow's Plan

So you know it, I know it, God knew it. I'm planning to ditch school tomorrow cause I think I'll kill anyone near me if I go to school tomorrow. Here's the plan, I'll go to the airport at 3 AM, pick up my awesome boy, joking around at McD, go to the driving range, making out at the parking lot (wtf I won't do that), rent a motorcycle, drive fast to the suburb, go back to the airport and then, yeah, we'll say goodbye and I'll meet him later in China. I won't go to school tomorrow.

Aulia Izzati (the genius one)

P.S don't expect me to be a spinsterhood, suckass...

Dunkin Donuts

Tadi siang pas solat Jum'at. Gue, Dessi, Keisha sama Verra ke dunkin. Di dunkin mereka ketawa-ketawa terus gue juga ketawa-ketawa tapi entah karena ketawa gue lebay atau emang gue ditakdirkan untuk begitu tiba-tiba DUAAAAAAK kepala bagian belakang gue kejeduk ujung tembok di Dunkin (yang bagian tajemnya itu loh) pas lagi ngakak dan tiba-tiba gue merasa nyeri yang amat sangat dan gila kepala gue berasa kebakar. Gue entah kenapa ga pengen nangis tapi air mata gue keluar sendiri (gue lagi ngakak terus tiba-tiba kesakitan tapi tetep ngakak, oh ya ga sampe bercucuran air matanya). si Dessi kayaknya udah ngakak terus ngeliat gue kejeduk bahagia bener. Terus setelah gue hampir melupakan kejadian itu, gue jalan ke kasir mau beli donat dan NYUUT buset dah itu kepala gue nyut-nyutan setiap jalan. pas nyampe rumah gue pegang....... benjol gede bener, mungkin itu dinding dendem ya ama gua?

Aulia Izzati (oh i'm undefeated)

P.S lu jangan ngatain gue lebay sebelum menjedukkan kepala lu ke ujung tembok dengan kekuatan penuh

I was just a train wreck ready to jump before the crash.  
When we first met, I was tied to the tracks and I could not begin to explain.
We were just a wild-eyed couple of kids.  
They always said we were a long shot way back then,
and through it all I never thought it’d turn out this way.

Now the scent of your malcontent is like the smell before the rain.
I keep telling myself not to trust myself,
but the time is coming, and I need someone to blame.

Tell me anything.  Because I lost my strength and I’m losing faith.
Everything has changed, unintended, and unexplained and I know somethings happening.
I’m missing you more than a house without a frame

We are just train wrecks amongst the living dead.  
If we’re so different, then why are we listening?

Bill

P.S I told you..

FOR YOU AND YOU ALONE

Keep your mouth shut when I’m drunk. I hate the person I become when you’re not around.
I like me better when we talk it all over. If there was ever a time I needed you, its right now.
I believe in a long-winded mind. Most nights I putter out like an over-worked, under oiled engine,
staring at a quivering candle, consciousness fading, as I slowly float to sleep.
My distorted reality paints a wonderfully deranged pattern. 
Doubt does strange things to people like us.  We hold each other tighter now that the news is in. 
You’re learning to live alone in a home full of holes with two good reasons to find hope.
One of these days I’ll unwind this watch and live for you and you alone

Bill

P.S I AM a gorgeous man

Eel Kill Elephants

Semarang

Gue di Semarang sekarang, jalan-jalan doong sendirian hahaha tadi di stasiun gue main-main alat buat nyetrum orang yang gue beli di Sogo. Di bungkusnya ada tulisan 'One Touch Will Kill Elephants' nah pas gue main-mainin, tiba-tiba.. ZZRRRRRRRRT alatnya nyala terus nyetrum tangan kiri gue. Untung aja tulisan di bungkusnya itu cuma kalimat hiperbola, tapi alhasil tangan kiri gue bener-bener sakit banget ga bisa bergerak dan ada bekasnya di tangan gue kayak bentol gitu..

itu yang merah bulet itu bekasnya

Bayangin selama 4 jam lebih tangan kiri gue ga bisa bergerak sama sekali


Aulia Izzati (the traveler)



P.S kalo di pencet gatel loh

I'm a Sucker for Fakes

I'll classify every word out of your lips as a lie
until you're lying beneath the dirt and the soil
hailed as the king of deceivers and cheats

you've got a lot to learn
more best friends to burn
more malignant lies to conjure
I'm down and out for now
but until the day you die
I will haunt your dreams

when you decide to paint your white picket fence,
be sure to use the purest his money can buy.
with every stroke, brush over the past,
and smother the true grain of your tainted life

you've got more guts to churn
an eternity to burn
you're about as innocent as cancer
I'm down and out for now
but until the day you die
I will haunt your dreams

I hope your breathing doesn't come easy
and I pray to God I'm all you dream
hope you feel my touch
hear my voice
taste my lips with every sip of noise
save your tears, don't apoligize
all you'll hear is good-bye
until you're a memory


Aulia Izzati (oh well)

P.S once again, I'm not as good as you think...

S

I can tell that you don't know me anymore, maybe you forget, I hope you just forget. Cause knowing that you DON'T WANT TO KNOW me hurts more than knowing that you FORGET me. You know, it's hard to accept that you don't wanna know but it's harder to ignore it. Can I just pretend that we never really know each other well?

Aulia Izzati

P.S ...

kasian ya gue ditemenin kalo ada duit atau lagi pada ada masalah doang. kalo lagi ga ada apa-apa pada main sendiri-sendiri sama temennya, nanti pas ada masalah lari ke gue semua dengan alasan yang di buat-buat, cerita semuanya ke gue sambil nangis-nangis lah inilah itulah. kenapa lo ga cerita aja sama temen lo yang baik itu sana? di buang ya? (mampus).

nanti di msn kalo ada masalah nyapa gue, kalo masalahnya udah selesai langsung off gitu aja, kalo lagi ga ada masalah, dicuekin. atau kalo ada apa-apa, minta bantuin gue ada hal yang ga penting tapi bikin sedih cerita ke gue, apa-apa gue, apa-apa gue.

terus sekalinya gue ada masalah, jangankan bantu, pas sadar gue ada masalah malah bilang 'lo ga ngasi tau gue sih' emang gue ga mau ngasi tau kok, nanti ujung-ujung nya bukannya gue yang cerita tapi malah pada ngerengek semua tentang masalah masing-masing ke gue. tapi nanti sekalinya gue ga bantuin, gue di omongin di belakang. beruntung banget sih gue punya temen kayak gitu. bahkan yang mau dengerin cerita gue cuma orang yang gue ga deket. lama-lama gue pikir gue lebih baik ga punya temen aja sekalian jadi ga ada yang ngerepotin lagi di hidup gue. cih

Aulia Izzati (feels like shit)

P.S siapa? pikir aja sendiri

Once again Dave, if you ask me a 'Do you like your friends?' question again, my answer will always be the same one. Some people may not be granted with the good one as yours, for me, I think God would say I deserved this. So you know what? Your friends are good so you call them your friends or 'yours'. But me, even they are all good, I hate mine to the fullest.

Aulia Izzati

P.S i colored the answer and the question in the same colors. don't blame me

can i hate God? or maybe i should blame myself for everything. well i never care bout things such like this but the things got me off guard and strike me out with its most powerful words oh get lost all of you

Aulia Izzati (ugh)

P.S strike-out, batter change!

well, why does every kids who listen to the punk rock had the title as "THE SCHOOL'S LOSER"? fuck off (even though i hate emo) i love punk rock. i believe that people who listen to it had its own way of thinking, they look at the world in a different angle, they don't see the wrong as it is, they see the wrong as why is. i think that everyone who said that 'yuck he is a punkers' or 'look at their styles! they're so out of date!' should shut their mouth. you can say i write this just to talk big or somewhat like that but i don't care. people who love punk rock never been anyone else but theirselves, they always be the way they are, not the fake one not the poser. the titled-theirselves-as-the-exist kids in my school are all stupid, they said they do know what true friends are but they just don't. they talk about each other in the back, it's such a shame i went to a school like that. so if i got these two choices :

a. be famous, stylish, the only existence that accepted, got everything
b. be the outcast, out of date, got nothing

i'll choose B cause i could respect all of my friends when i just got a few friends, i don't need to be confused of what-will-i-wear-today if i'm out of date, and i can learn to appreciate when i get something if i got nothing

so, which one do you prefer?

I thought that I could always count on you
I thought that nothing could come between us
we said as long as we would stick together
we'd be alright
we'd be okay

but I was stupid
and you broke me down
I'll never be the same again

so thank you for showing me
that best friends cannot be trusted
and thank you for lying to me
your friendship and good time we had
you can have them back

I wonder why it always has to hurt
for every lesson that you have to learn
I won't forget what you did to me
how you showed me things I wished I'd never see

but I was stupid
and you broke me down
I'll never be the same again

so thank you for showing me
that best friends cannot be trusted
and thank you for lying to me
your friendship and good time we had
you can have them back

when the tables turn again
you'll remember me, my friend
you'll be wishing I was there for you
I'll be the one you miss the most
but you'll only find my ghost
as time goes by
you'll wonder why
you're all alone

so thank you, for lying to me
so thank you, for all the times
you let me down
so thank you, for lying to me
so thank you, your friendship
you can have it back


Aulia Izzati (the most expensive name in the world)

P.S kasian ya gue di temenin kalo lagi dibutuhin doang

To : All of the Human I Hate

Jakarta : Friday, 20th of February, 2009
Indonesian extra lesson
14.15 - 14.21

so tell me how it feels
when you spoke the words between your shabby lips?
do you feel any good in that? cause i feel fuck with that. so go ahead.
speak out you mind, then i'll speak out my rage
you must be a stupid-head, a thinker without brain
don't judge my words by yours, you know nothing
don't judge my feelings about other, you know nothing

and the day after tomorrow
you'll get your head upside-down
confused by your own words
i'll use your words against you
i know your friends will be the death to you
you just don't know yet

speak out louder
so everyone can hear you even they don't want to
you'll get the shabby eggs on your shabby face
i must be the one and you know it
the human behind the lines, the thinker with better brain
and i must be the one

and the day after tomorrow
you'll get your head upside-down
confused by your own words
i'll use your words against you
i know your friends will be the death to you
you just don't know yet

you know i always got the way to work this out
i've got a way and you know exactly how
yes, i want to hold you up and bring you down
oh gosh i just wanna break you down so badly
and it will always be in the worst way
i'm gonna make sure you can't ever get too far from me
no, you wont ever get too far
i'll bring you close to me so i could explode your head

and the day after tomorrow
you'll get your head upside-down
confused by your own words
i'll use your words against you
i know your friends will be the death to you
and of course you will know it soon
suck it, fucker


Aulia Izzati (this name will be the witness)

P.S I'm not as good as you thought

very well

now you're gone, i wonder why you left me here
i think about it on and on and on and on and on again
i know you'll never coming back
i hope that you can hear me
i'm waiting to hear from you, until i do

you're gone away, i'm left alone
a part of me is gone and i'm not moving on
so wait for me, i know the day will come

i'll meet you there
no matter where life takes me to
i'll meet you there
and even if i need you here
i'll meet you there

i wish i could have told you the things i kept inside
but now i guess it's just too late
so many things remind me of you
i hope that you can hear me
i miss you, this is goodbye, one last time

you're gone away, i'm left alone
a part of me is gone and i'm not moving on
so wait for me, i know the day will come

i'll meet you there
no matter where life takes me to
i'll meet you there
and even if i need you here
i'll meet you there

and where i go you'll be there with me
forever you'll be right here with me

i'll meet you there
no matter where life takes me to
i'll meet you there
and even if i need you here
i'll meet you there

i'll meet you there
no matter where life takes me
i'll meet you there
and even if i need you
i'll meet you there


Aulia Izzati (God let them read this)

P.S read that sucker, so you will know what i feel inside now

Destria Rahmadini (old post but well i can't stop)

this is the old one, i made this on August 6, 2008

this is the story about my friends named destria rahmadini. i know, a weird name just like mine. the different between me and her is she's from a weird generation and i'm from a crazy generation. and one thing that she always do is talking with book. i told you that she's weird, right? and i've got a little chit chat with her today and also with my friends semy. just for info : she's in the same class with semy, 9-5, and i'm in 9-1. i came to her class in the second break then she asked where's my friends then i said 'i've got no friends' i said that as a joke and semy laugh. then destri said 'no, i mean the kids' well she start to show her weirdo haha then she said 'where are they, why they are not coming here?' i start to being confuse so i just said 'they're busy' then she took semy's book then play with it. she didn't write anything she just look at it just like she look her boyfriend!! weird girl!! i just scared that she fell in love with that book and marry it. hmm i think if i burn that book she will suicide haha. then semy and i start to disturb her with our disgusting sentences like 'hey, mbok, how are you?' or 'des, don't look through the window! we don't want to hear roma irama's song here!' roma irama is an old singer in our country, i don't know what genre is he into. but i think he is dangduts, if you want to hear any of his song, just googled it 'roma irama darah muda' haha i bet you will laugh after you hear it. okay, back to destri. destri has so many special abilities like talk with book, laugh without showing her teeth, and the most weird ability is she can be invisible! she often talk about gani sometimes. gani is not a human, well he look like a human but he is not! trust me if you meet him, you will feel that you won't have a happy feeling anymore. he is devil! oh destri again. she is strange. if we talk with her, we will never be able to understand any of her words even she's talking with the same language with us. she is talking like an alien and the one who able to understand destri's word is gani. they're a perfect couple anyway. but i don't think destri will leave semy's book like that cause she really really love it! imagine, she choose to talk with that book than talk with us! well now i can tell that destri live in the same generation with his father. his father is our economy techer, his name is Mr. Sularno, as weird as her daughter. he has so many special abilities just like destri. but the different is he can talk with money! he always chat with a 5.000 rupiah paper everytime he teach my class. i think if he meet that money before he met his wife, he will marry that money. hmm enough about destri agh i feel so sorry to her right now but, God, this is fucking awesome and fun haha just wait for your turn guys!


Aulia Izzati (oh boredom buster)

P.S you know des, i won't say sorry hahaha

do you know?

with life on hold
say goodbye to old habits of circumstance
the way you know me seems to show me why i'm glad i took this chance

i've fallen short of grace each time i see your face
you make me feel so free
but i can't comprise
and i won't compromise
all you've done for me

i know it seems like a dream
please, God, don't take this away from me

the way you love me all the same, i'm amazed at who you are
this moment in my life, it's like i'm never loved before
the way you show me with a kiss, how much you care

you are love you are life
to me you're peace of mind


Aulia Izzati (yeah. it's me)

P.S you will never know