Dunkin Donuts

Tadi siang pas solat Jum'at. Gue, Dessi, Keisha sama Verra ke dunkin. Di dunkin mereka ketawa-ketawa terus gue juga ketawa-ketawa tapi entah karena ketawa gue lebay atau emang gue ditakdirkan untuk begitu tiba-tiba DUAAAAAAK kepala bagian belakang gue kejeduk ujung tembok di Dunkin (yang bagian tajemnya itu loh) pas lagi ngakak dan tiba-tiba gue merasa nyeri yang amat sangat dan gila kepala gue berasa kebakar. Gue entah kenapa ga pengen nangis tapi air mata gue keluar sendiri (gue lagi ngakak terus tiba-tiba kesakitan tapi tetep ngakak, oh ya ga sampe bercucuran air matanya). si Dessi kayaknya udah ngakak terus ngeliat gue kejeduk bahagia bener. Terus setelah gue hampir melupakan kejadian itu, gue jalan ke kasir mau beli donat dan NYUUT buset dah itu kepala gue nyut-nyutan setiap jalan. pas nyampe rumah gue pegang....... benjol gede bener, mungkin itu dinding dendem ya ama gua?

Aulia Izzati (oh i'm undefeated)

P.S lu jangan ngatain gue lebay sebelum menjedukkan kepala lu ke ujung tembok dengan kekuatan penuh

I was just a train wreck ready to jump before the crash.  
When we first met, I was tied to the tracks and I could not begin to explain.
We were just a wild-eyed couple of kids.  
They always said we were a long shot way back then,
and through it all I never thought it’d turn out this way.

Now the scent of your malcontent is like the smell before the rain.
I keep telling myself not to trust myself,
but the time is coming, and I need someone to blame.

Tell me anything.  Because I lost my strength and I’m losing faith.
Everything has changed, unintended, and unexplained and I know somethings happening.
I’m missing you more than a house without a frame

We are just train wrecks amongst the living dead.  
If we’re so different, then why are we listening?

Bill

P.S I told you..

FOR YOU AND YOU ALONE

Keep your mouth shut when I’m drunk. I hate the person I become when you’re not around.
I like me better when we talk it all over. If there was ever a time I needed you, its right now.
I believe in a long-winded mind. Most nights I putter out like an over-worked, under oiled engine,
staring at a quivering candle, consciousness fading, as I slowly float to sleep.
My distorted reality paints a wonderfully deranged pattern. 
Doubt does strange things to people like us.  We hold each other tighter now that the news is in. 
You’re learning to live alone in a home full of holes with two good reasons to find hope.
One of these days I’ll unwind this watch and live for you and you alone

Bill

P.S I AM a gorgeous man

Eel Kill Elephants

Semarang

Gue di Semarang sekarang, jalan-jalan doong sendirian hahaha tadi di stasiun gue main-main alat buat nyetrum orang yang gue beli di Sogo. Di bungkusnya ada tulisan 'One Touch Will Kill Elephants' nah pas gue main-mainin, tiba-tiba.. ZZRRRRRRRRT alatnya nyala terus nyetrum tangan kiri gue. Untung aja tulisan di bungkusnya itu cuma kalimat hiperbola, tapi alhasil tangan kiri gue bener-bener sakit banget ga bisa bergerak dan ada bekasnya di tangan gue kayak bentol gitu..

itu yang merah bulet itu bekasnya

Bayangin selama 4 jam lebih tangan kiri gue ga bisa bergerak sama sekali


Aulia Izzati (the traveler)



P.S kalo di pencet gatel loh

I'm a Sucker for Fakes

I'll classify every word out of your lips as a lie
until you're lying beneath the dirt and the soil
hailed as the king of deceivers and cheats

you've got a lot to learn
more best friends to burn
more malignant lies to conjure
I'm down and out for now
but until the day you die
I will haunt your dreams

when you decide to paint your white picket fence,
be sure to use the purest his money can buy.
with every stroke, brush over the past,
and smother the true grain of your tainted life

you've got more guts to churn
an eternity to burn
you're about as innocent as cancer
I'm down and out for now
but until the day you die
I will haunt your dreams

I hope your breathing doesn't come easy
and I pray to God I'm all you dream
hope you feel my touch
hear my voice
taste my lips with every sip of noise
save your tears, don't apoligize
all you'll hear is good-bye
until you're a memory


Aulia Izzati (oh well)

P.S once again, I'm not as good as you think...

S

I can tell that you don't know me anymore, maybe you forget, I hope you just forget. Cause knowing that you DON'T WANT TO KNOW me hurts more than knowing that you FORGET me. You know, it's hard to accept that you don't wanna know but it's harder to ignore it. Can I just pretend that we never really know each other well?

Aulia Izzati

P.S ...

kasian ya gue ditemenin kalo ada duit atau lagi pada ada masalah doang. kalo lagi ga ada apa-apa pada main sendiri-sendiri sama temennya, nanti pas ada masalah lari ke gue semua dengan alasan yang di buat-buat, cerita semuanya ke gue sambil nangis-nangis lah inilah itulah. kenapa lo ga cerita aja sama temen lo yang baik itu sana? di buang ya? (mampus).

nanti di msn kalo ada masalah nyapa gue, kalo masalahnya udah selesai langsung off gitu aja, kalo lagi ga ada masalah, dicuekin. atau kalo ada apa-apa, minta bantuin gue ada hal yang ga penting tapi bikin sedih cerita ke gue, apa-apa gue, apa-apa gue.

terus sekalinya gue ada masalah, jangankan bantu, pas sadar gue ada masalah malah bilang 'lo ga ngasi tau gue sih' emang gue ga mau ngasi tau kok, nanti ujung-ujung nya bukannya gue yang cerita tapi malah pada ngerengek semua tentang masalah masing-masing ke gue. tapi nanti sekalinya gue ga bantuin, gue di omongin di belakang. beruntung banget sih gue punya temen kayak gitu. bahkan yang mau dengerin cerita gue cuma orang yang gue ga deket. lama-lama gue pikir gue lebih baik ga punya temen aja sekalian jadi ga ada yang ngerepotin lagi di hidup gue. cih

Aulia Izzati (feels like shit)

P.S siapa? pikir aja sendiri

Once again Dave, if you ask me a 'Do you like your friends?' question again, my answer will always be the same one. Some people may not be granted with the good one as yours, for me, I think God would say I deserved this. So you know what? Your friends are good so you call them your friends or 'yours'. But me, even they are all good, I hate mine to the fullest.

Aulia Izzati

P.S i colored the answer and the question in the same colors. don't blame me

can i hate God? or maybe i should blame myself for everything. well i never care bout things such like this but the things got me off guard and strike me out with its most powerful words oh get lost all of you

Aulia Izzati (ugh)

P.S strike-out, batter change!

well, why does every kids who listen to the punk rock had the title as "THE SCHOOL'S LOSER"? fuck off (even though i hate emo) i love punk rock. i believe that people who listen to it had its own way of thinking, they look at the world in a different angle, they don't see the wrong as it is, they see the wrong as why is. i think that everyone who said that 'yuck he is a punkers' or 'look at their styles! they're so out of date!' should shut their mouth. you can say i write this just to talk big or somewhat like that but i don't care. people who love punk rock never been anyone else but theirselves, they always be the way they are, not the fake one not the poser. the titled-theirselves-as-the-exist kids in my school are all stupid, they said they do know what true friends are but they just don't. they talk about each other in the back, it's such a shame i went to a school like that. so if i got these two choices :

a. be famous, stylish, the only existence that accepted, got everything
b. be the outcast, out of date, got nothing

i'll choose B cause i could respect all of my friends when i just got a few friends, i don't need to be confused of what-will-i-wear-today if i'm out of date, and i can learn to appreciate when i get something if i got nothing

so, which one do you prefer?

I thought that I could always count on you
I thought that nothing could come between us
we said as long as we would stick together
we'd be alright
we'd be okay

but I was stupid
and you broke me down
I'll never be the same again

so thank you for showing me
that best friends cannot be trusted
and thank you for lying to me
your friendship and good time we had
you can have them back

I wonder why it always has to hurt
for every lesson that you have to learn
I won't forget what you did to me
how you showed me things I wished I'd never see

but I was stupid
and you broke me down
I'll never be the same again

so thank you for showing me
that best friends cannot be trusted
and thank you for lying to me
your friendship and good time we had
you can have them back

when the tables turn again
you'll remember me, my friend
you'll be wishing I was there for you
I'll be the one you miss the most
but you'll only find my ghost
as time goes by
you'll wonder why
you're all alone

so thank you, for lying to me
so thank you, for all the times
you let me down
so thank you, for lying to me
so thank you, your friendship
you can have it back


Aulia Izzati (the most expensive name in the world)

P.S kasian ya gue di temenin kalo lagi dibutuhin doang

To : All of the Human I Hate

Jakarta : Friday, 20th of February, 2009
Indonesian extra lesson
14.15 - 14.21

so tell me how it feels
when you spoke the words between your shabby lips?
do you feel any good in that? cause i feel fuck with that. so go ahead.
speak out you mind, then i'll speak out my rage
you must be a stupid-head, a thinker without brain
don't judge my words by yours, you know nothing
don't judge my feelings about other, you know nothing

and the day after tomorrow
you'll get your head upside-down
confused by your own words
i'll use your words against you
i know your friends will be the death to you
you just don't know yet

speak out louder
so everyone can hear you even they don't want to
you'll get the shabby eggs on your shabby face
i must be the one and you know it
the human behind the lines, the thinker with better brain
and i must be the one

and the day after tomorrow
you'll get your head upside-down
confused by your own words
i'll use your words against you
i know your friends will be the death to you
you just don't know yet

you know i always got the way to work this out
i've got a way and you know exactly how
yes, i want to hold you up and bring you down
oh gosh i just wanna break you down so badly
and it will always be in the worst way
i'm gonna make sure you can't ever get too far from me
no, you wont ever get too far
i'll bring you close to me so i could explode your head

and the day after tomorrow
you'll get your head upside-down
confused by your own words
i'll use your words against you
i know your friends will be the death to you
and of course you will know it soon
suck it, fucker


Aulia Izzati (this name will be the witness)

P.S I'm not as good as you thought